How to Play?

Is there anyone who doesn’t love games? Ever since we’re little, games are fun. We’d rather play games than do our homework.

Monopoly, Airplanes, Scrabble, those are games to play, they have rules. So why do we choose to play with someone else’s heart or mind when we grow up?

Power. It’s about the power that we have over the other person. Since there are no clear rules, one can easily change the game as the interaction goes on. The game and rules are different from one player to another.

Apparently, if you start playing a game trying to be fair and honest, you already lost.

Life, and love too, is simple. It’s the people that complicate it. Why can’t it be as simple as ‘I like you and you like me; let’s do something about it’? No, it’s not that simple because we forgot how to be honest. We forget to tell someone ‘I like you NOW – but I don’t know about tomorrow’, ‘I want to be with you – but I’m just so f*cked up and I don’t know how to be in a relationship’. It’s easy to neglect those things…

And the worst of all, sometimes it’s not even our fault. If you answer to a text too soon, you’re boring. You take too long, missed your chance. Text first, you’re desperate. Don’t text at all, you’re not interested.

They’ve taught us since little that time heals everything. Well guess what, it doesn’t. Time just helps you replace memories and people. It’s not that you won’t remember it, but that you’ve saved another memory over it. But what do you do when you own a memory that won’t be replaced?

Personally, I have one of those. I still have that one person that got out of my life and I cannot replace him no matter what. And it’s like that with the memories too. No matter how much time has passed or how many people I meet, no matter what I try, it’s no use. I’ve tried getting used to the idea of why that person left my life, I’ve tried to rationalize it by searching a meaning, I’ve tried denying it, I’ve tried anything I could think of and that worked till now. Still, the only one that I haven’t tried and that’s not possible is trying to get in touch again.

So what now? Could you imagine a game where everybody wins?

 

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